John Tangent (john_tangent) wrote,
John Tangent

Trauma can be tramatic

So figuring out your past is supposed to help you deal with the trigger that affect you present, right?

So realizing that the reason I can't function very well in the morning hours of 7 to 10 is due to the fact that for 12 years I would leave the, roughly speaking, safe home environment to go to the emotionally abusive public school where I was hated and treated with extreme reproach, disdain, hatred, and worse will help me, right? I mean now I can just act as if it never happened, right? Or maybe I can just never deal with mornings again...yah that'll work.

Yep, I would wake up in the morning, from the only true peace I knew, sleep. I would be managed by my mother and sent to school where it would usually take till about 10 am to get over the experience and for the other 'students' to calm down and leave me, somewhat, alone.

I find this 'break through' to be rather anti-climatic.
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